better days

kind of...
I had a great day yesterday. It got up to about 66, the sun was shining, it just put me in a great mood. Work went well...had a guy who was kind of flirty and I chalk that up to the fact that since i felt better mentally it was showing physically, thus making me more attractive. Did have some hang ups yesterday, mainly missing the bus and then having a flat tire at home...but i didn't let it get to me too much.
I've started a diet...so to speak. Watching what I eat at least...since Sunday. Next week's trip to cincinnati will probably shoot it all the heck but the intention is there, some motivation...so that's good.
I'm getting slammed with school stuff right now though. Not enough time...well at least not enough time to get it done AND try to mentally heal myself. I think I'm getting better about letting what other people are doing roll off my back. I told Jen today, if I walked out with hardly a thing on my resume, I wouldn't care...I'm not there to be put on a million projects, I just want to learn and try to enjoy the learning process.
I joined the graduate student support group. Today was our second meeting, and I think it is helping too. I'm so not alone with these frustrations of power, control and manipulation at this stage in school, or alone with my feelings. I'm kind of bummed we don't have a meeting next week.
Back to yesterday...I think it was one of the first days that I felt like a grown woman, living her life for herself. Indiana, PA is where I live....which really isn't all that different from where I came from. I guess I felt like I was living more in the present than living for the past. I really truly wish I could feel that way everyday.
Instead I have 3 days of classes, prep for 2 presentations for conference and reading reading reading!